So if you may have not known but I have beboyen in an almost 2 year relationship with a wonderful boyfriend Patrick. He is sweet, kind, funny, carefree, and loves me dearly. And I had come to realization that I don't love him as much he loves me. Also, that I feel it is not meant to be. So, I broke up with him this morning.
The boy I watched grow into a man, that I trusted, shared my secrets, and become a friend and lover. So, one of the hardest things I will ever had to do, was look into his eyes and say that its over. Then, I watched his heart break into a million pieces. I hated it, and I never want to do that to someone ever again. To cause someone so much pain, and depression, is causing me pain just doing it. After, I did it, i felt guilty and sad for what I had done, but relived that I had finally gotten my true feelings out there, and to not let it go on longer.
Now, he wants to be friends and talk periodically, but I think that for us to both move on and stop being sad that we need to give each other space. But I understand that we were each others whole lives, and just to sever ties like that is very painful.
Though this trying time, My friends and family have reached out and given me much support and love. I have learned that life does go on and will for me. I know it will take time and effort, but I can and will do it.
Through this troubling time, I have learned a lot about myself, that I am a strong beautiful woman who can accomplish anything I put my mind, too.
With Love,
Becca :)
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